Bilby
Executive Chef
Thanks everyone for your messages of support. My father died when I was 15 so I am not unfamiliar with this but as many of you have said, your mother holds a different role in most of our lives. The extended family has been so together for the past few weeks to be with mum that now, I and I think most of the others, want a bit of alone time, as well as a return to normallacy. Each time I go to bed, I get pounced on by one of my cats cos even they have suffered as I have barely been here and they have just been locked up 24/7.
First night back in my own bed, I couldn't sleep - not thru grief you understand - but cos my body had adjusted to sleeping on one of those fold-a-beds! My big comfortable bed just didn't do it for me!!! And I had to sleep with the light on, cos again, I had adjusted. (Mum wanted the light on all night as I suspect that as her eyesight failed her in the last weeks, she wasn't sure if she was alive or dead when she woke up during the night. At least if the light was on, she could make out the furniture, etc.)
Now, I am so torn between getting stuck in to packing things up and cleaning or just going to bed and trying to catch up on my missed sleep!! Having spoken with heaps of mum's friends to let them know in the last two days, I have just about spoken my initial grief out.
Life is dynamic. Onwards and upwards, as they say. I shall see what tomorrow brings.
Thanks again.
Penny
First night back in my own bed, I couldn't sleep - not thru grief you understand - but cos my body had adjusted to sleeping on one of those fold-a-beds! My big comfortable bed just didn't do it for me!!! And I had to sleep with the light on, cos again, I had adjusted. (Mum wanted the light on all night as I suspect that as her eyesight failed her in the last weeks, she wasn't sure if she was alive or dead when she woke up during the night. At least if the light was on, she could make out the furniture, etc.)
Now, I am so torn between getting stuck in to packing things up and cleaning or just going to bed and trying to catch up on my missed sleep!! Having spoken with heaps of mum's friends to let them know in the last two days, I have just about spoken my initial grief out.
Life is dynamic. Onwards and upwards, as they say. I shall see what tomorrow brings.
Thanks again.
Penny